Spending Sunday

Ended up spending around 1500/- today in getting the new bedding made and the suitcase handle repaired...
the biggest issue with me now is - I do not negotiate.. I am very bad at negotiating and asking for better pricing... I just can't think how to get to talk to a person and get to negotiate things with the person on any matter... and more importantly so.. about money..

I am just hoping this kind of an attitude is not passed down... it is basically fear that has surrounded me and keeps me constantly in check and with fear is this constant nag of - what to do in the situation? how to talk, what to talk, how to get someone's interest in what I have to say and how to say things more forcefully... this is my problem now.. as I see what is stopping me from going forward...

anyways, so sunday is gone this way, entered some Reliance Phone bill details in the system and spent all evening on it.. another waste of time and no focus on either PMP or anything that I could get to read..

the house looks a mess adding to all my confusion and I don't know where to start to clean up if I sit on line like this...