Friday the 13th

Second friday in this year that was a 13th, and coincidentally, Feb and Mar have the same dates for the day days till the 28th.. interestingly so.

Today the mail came through which earmarked me to Bombay center.
I am back to the base but now i am all the more restless.

Also got a call from the neighbor asking about bujju... her health... very surprisingly so.
Maybe they did realise that someone was living around in our house alone and that she had not visited them in a while. Good for me in a way too...

Nevertheless, with the gyan shared by the new manager Sameer, I am feeling very down and dejected.. the whole work mood seems to have gone very low for me.. very sinking like that I have been feeling lately.

I am seeing that this whole thing will become a routine and I can't take a routine. I need a change and that has to be fast. There are so many pending things, all of which depends on financial conditions...
Need to buy Mohan mama's plot, not sure for what but just to prevent anyone from buying it and leaving our house in the lurch... Amma and Pappa need support now and this is the time I should be spending with them but how??? what can I do to go there or how can I get them here... I want them with me forever but I know with my current state I am neither able to do anything nor am able to make anything happen for the future...

Only if I had some money in hand, I would have probably left this city and went back to start something on my own.. I don't know what that could be but something.... Training and education comes to my mind but I am fearing the how of it and the what of it... how will I do it and what will I do..

looking at this mind of mine I feel so scared of the future.. where am I going to go like this, all dependant on just this job and the overall economic and job scene gloom all around.
These things weigh on my head but I Am not able to focus on one thing at a time.
I need to complete PMP, MBA and then take up another JOB!!!! can't I do anything on my own... and if so, what is the plan I need to have

now with the baby coming along.. how can I be more grounded? What can I really do????