sleep deprivation

I remembered a report about Parzania in which it was mentioned about Sarika's acting - how she acted the part of knowing that she was going mad, hearing about the disappearance of her son, but still maintained herself as a normal individual...

Something of this sort hit me last night... I was caught up trying to unravel the whole issue of this relocation, whether the company is really wanting to relieve me of my services in case I say that I can't relocate - what if I did that, who should I talk to, who will listen to me, what scenario should I present.... what I need to say, how can I justify what I say... should I justify or not...
it was really a maddening situation... I knew I was losing my sense of collective thoughts and not able to coherently keep my thoughts about what I should do.

I have been wanting to clean up my place but I have not been able to focus on anything... always thinking that I will have some more to do when it really comes to that...
- cleaning up the kitchen is the biggest issue. there is much we have that could get spoilt if left unattended.. so that needs to be taken care of... items like rice, dal, jeera, jaggery need to be taken care of sooner..

Then there are containers to pack.
the gunny sacks need to be cleaned up.. hopefully i will leave by 3 today and get back to do the gunny sack work..
had a short chat with the guy who pushed me into this. Today he was sounding a little off the edge so somehow some relief is in the head though i think it is still a hallucination of mine...