Finally the Kotak cards arrived today... after all that drama
The day was a lost one... saw the shooting of serial next door.. some funeral scene.. how much they put into that sequence.. the wood, the fire, the sequence... shot a clip on the Palm..
still undecided if I can start the MBA.. but i have to
can't keep sitting on line here like this
wanted to start reading Sanskrit today.. didn't. so how do I stop being online... and focus on more important things on hand????
Pappa's credit card fees discussion.. kind of got angry .. felt bad later that I shd have been more careful about controling my temper.. he probably didn't pay attention.. i need to help him out.
i still feel apprehensive about him driving all alone.. I am praying BajrangBali will protect him all along..
i am still getting thoughts i need to leave all this and go back..
Showing posts with label apprehension. Show all posts
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
tentative tuesday
well here's another of those tentative days when now I will know what and where i belong
and after i know this, i HAVE TO get back into life... for my baby and for my family now! or never...
having spent the day at work in a numbing way, with no clue why I am doing what I am doing, I spoke to the Noida manager who was tentative in his response... he had asked me to speak to someone in Bombay who 'might' be able to help in swapping a position with a Pune resource and I could continue staying here...
But the Bombay manager was in Pune in a meeting and I was not able to discuss the problem with him. I am hoping that I can hear back from him tomorrow and it will be a positive case but keeping all fingers crossed for the worse of news.
I had been thinking that once bujju gets to Indore, she might feel a little relaxed but also was wondering that she'd be her hesitant usual and that could cause some kind of changes in her overall physiology... this could get translated down and that is my main concern...
Somehow i think my current being of fear is all caused due to the heavy stress amma went through my times... and I hope I don't have to face a similar situation but then... who am I to decide and shape the future when I myself am not in a position to shape my own.
nevertheless, I hope the woman realizes her important contribution to the development of the foetus and takes all suitable steps... just that one can't make someone realise externally... all has to come from within.. just as I am realizing the state of affairs now!!!!
and after i know this, i HAVE TO get back into life... for my baby and for my family now! or never...
having spent the day at work in a numbing way, with no clue why I am doing what I am doing, I spoke to the Noida manager who was tentative in his response... he had asked me to speak to someone in Bombay who 'might' be able to help in swapping a position with a Pune resource and I could continue staying here...
But the Bombay manager was in Pune in a meeting and I was not able to discuss the problem with him. I am hoping that I can hear back from him tomorrow and it will be a positive case but keeping all fingers crossed for the worse of news.
I had been thinking that once bujju gets to Indore, she might feel a little relaxed but also was wondering that she'd be her hesitant usual and that could cause some kind of changes in her overall physiology... this could get translated down and that is my main concern...
Somehow i think my current being of fear is all caused due to the heavy stress amma went through my times... and I hope I don't have to face a similar situation but then... who am I to decide and shape the future when I myself am not in a position to shape my own.
nevertheless, I hope the woman realizes her important contribution to the development of the foetus and takes all suitable steps... just that one can't make someone realise externally... all has to come from within.. just as I am realizing the state of affairs now!!!!
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