Household chores

working full time at home is not an easy task.. as I have discovered and to my additional internet addiction, have also seen it is all the more impossible to be able to complete all work in time and still have some time to 'relax'

This luxury of relaxation seems to be a very far away item on my agenda now onwards. I see how tracking and keeping pace with everything needs so much focus and attention esp. because 4 hours of my time are literally lost not being able to do any other work... only traveling stuffed up in a bus...

So going forward, each and every minute has to be made to count towards each and every goal I am trying for... including defining those goals.
I believe I need to now work on a plan by planning my work which I never did so long. Esp. also because I need to set up an example for the family which is my biggest concern now.

Work will start from Monday as indicated yesterday. I need to see how hectic this will be to be able to plan the rest of my days. For 1 frikkin full year, I have wasted my time..
now I have things that are all the more important
a. MBA within 1 year with exams every 2 months; Rs. 8000 + 2400 fees including exams and material
b. PMP - this looks like a lost item for now. I will have to re-work all my options and submit my application again sometime later esp. because of the expenses... $405 = Rs. 25000 almost looking at Rs. 52/- to the $
c. Baby attention - medical and all things logistical
d. Relocation to a new apartment if possible - expensive to say the least (Rent of the month + deposit around 1 lac)
e. Car if I can afford this too in the above list.
f. attention towards amma and pappa which I have as a very high priority though in parallel, the career front will get impacted if I go back to Indore.
so all these are now going to hit hard if I don't plan well and well enough

work week begins

The week again started off with me dreading how much work I will end up with... I think my tendency to work hard hhas been hit by the last one year of complacency... and now I wonder how I will be able to ensure that I can take up the new role, manage time between family and work and also be able to study...
Thinking - they say - makes man dull.. but without a thought process, one can't get things done too.. the difference is in probably thinking coherently than just thinking randomly.
I think randomly and I don't put things in an order... so this is another cause of my worry.

On the other hand was also worried about transferring these traits down.. if I am not able to handle my own situation, what can I guide a kid with. but then, these are thoughts we all probably go through and we have to live in the present as I read in the book - Cross Train your brain. I believe one will have to stay put in the present and stop worrying.

So now that we are in the 12th week, and I have not had a chance to interact with bujju effectively enough to spend time with her in person, I am worried... I hope I will be able to at least go home before the event so that I can be with her for the period... I am just not able to get down to think through this... which is the weakness I need to deal with. thinking of going back to the psychologist to resolve this process.

But either way, work will begin this week and from next, we will be in a state of transition from someone out in BT. I am again praying that this should be a manageable assignment and hoping in all hopes for it to be 'easy' to manage from home.