now i am losing time and patience more so...
this week we were to start work.. didn't happen
in a way i was happy that i will get time to prepare..
but prepare crap I did..
wasted time again online.. and like last night.. was trying to get into a vicarious situation for which I am paying through my nose...
and then this pain in the temples.. as though something hit me there.. i hit my head on the headboard last night ... didn't sleep well at all.. and my left eyelid is also weak.. doesn't open when i force my eyes shut.. needs a lot of rest. i have not been sleeping well at all!!!!
this has to either stop or the calls will have to originate from there which they do but don't last long enough
I am also losing time on the PMP preparation. I might as well go for it now.. but again... i am riddled with this nonsensical fear that I will not be able to catch up and study
i tried to encourage myself that since Pranjal was able to study while working, with 2 kids at home, why am I so lousy in this aspect?
the response is that I am too weak to control my senses and my sense of self control seems to be waning because I am not putting in the effort to strengthen it
it is me who is the culprit yet I am not taking any action on this!!! till when?
I know I will regret my decisions now later... yet I am not tightening my belt!!
is the condition of my house a reason? possible... maybe if I rearrange things a bit, it might be better and might show me the change I need...
basically I need a study table...
Bujju finally booked the tickets for 22nd.. and I need to book mine for the 24th to reach Hyd on 25th...
it has been very hot till last evening.. today was a little better..
the anti-termite work got over yesterday evening at Indore...
the anti cockroach treatment seemed to have brought out very little cockroaches as Amma said... maybe there is some other way they have escaped?!!!
nevertheless, the termite protection needs to work and hopefully the mound needs to move away...
Showing posts with label decisions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label decisions. Show all posts
Friday, April 3, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
working Saturday
not sure what all I want to write today.. with yesterday's day spent in a little better way planning for today, i did get some work done today though it would take me to really get down tomorrow to get the mobile phone issue and the letter from society sorted out
then i have to clean up the fridge and sweep and iron... so more work tomorrow and i am still on the net...
reading in bits and pieces about the baby journey.. and in deep thought about whether to tackle PMP first, going by the story of the ESG person Bordia (can't remember her name!!) or take up MBA.
will have to take a call on this soon. PMP might work better but then I need to prepare really hard for it - like Sandhya said, 2 months full preparation.
I have time till Aug. in a way!
make it happen man!
somehow i am making more use of my time.. and i need to keep doing that during office time too... went to Dadar in the eve, bought a camera battery for 950/- some Camelion brand replacing ENEL1
not sure how it will work out but they say it's going to have a longer life.
Anthony Robbins 3 parts made me think... yes it is my decisions that are slow and I am wasting too much time thinking about which decision to take... decisions are decisions.. i can't think about them too much! got to work on this aspect
then i have to clean up the fridge and sweep and iron... so more work tomorrow and i am still on the net...
reading in bits and pieces about the baby journey.. and in deep thought about whether to tackle PMP first, going by the story of the ESG person Bordia (can't remember her name!!) or take up MBA.
will have to take a call on this soon. PMP might work better but then I need to prepare really hard for it - like Sandhya said, 2 months full preparation.
I have time till Aug. in a way!
make it happen man!
somehow i am making more use of my time.. and i need to keep doing that during office time too... went to Dadar in the eve, bought a camera battery for 950/- some Camelion brand replacing ENEL1
not sure how it will work out but they say it's going to have a longer life.
Anthony Robbins 3 parts made me think... yes it is my decisions that are slow and I am wasting too much time thinking about which decision to take... decisions are decisions.. i can't think about them too much! got to work on this aspect
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Holi was here
a dreary day spent on the net - got the DVR-MS converted last night into WMA
tried to edit the wma file but didn't get too far with it...
wanted to sit and study but the attention deficit disorder seems to have taken over.. I need more focus and concentration now..
mentally and physically i am still not ready for the event 6 months down the line.. i think I will rudely wake up one day again like last time and rush into things if I don't do a deliberate attempts to get things in place... for instance, the bed needs to be made up, an A/C might need to be installed.. or a net for that matter to prevent mosquitoes from getting in, and make some space in the living room.. and if possible, find a new place..
i am stuck in this decision between a car or an apartment on rent.. both cost me heavy and I Am not sure which works out better... maybe a car will have to be a second hand one... and the apartment move has to be reconsidered.. either moving permanently to Indore or ..
I'm confused... I hope I will be able to become more decisive in the next few months cos I can't have a situation where everyone depends on me and I am waiting on my own decisions!!!!
tried to edit the wma file but didn't get too far with it...
wanted to sit and study but the attention deficit disorder seems to have taken over.. I need more focus and concentration now..
mentally and physically i am still not ready for the event 6 months down the line.. i think I will rudely wake up one day again like last time and rush into things if I don't do a deliberate attempts to get things in place... for instance, the bed needs to be made up, an A/C might need to be installed.. or a net for that matter to prevent mosquitoes from getting in, and make some space in the living room.. and if possible, find a new place..
i am stuck in this decision between a car or an apartment on rent.. both cost me heavy and I Am not sure which works out better... maybe a car will have to be a second hand one... and the apartment move has to be reconsidered.. either moving permanently to Indore or ..
I'm confused... I hope I will be able to become more decisive in the next few months cos I can't have a situation where everyone depends on me and I am waiting on my own decisions!!!!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Sunday post
Sunday came and went... I am still there.. didn't do much again but feel very tired by the end of it all
Tried not to get online but could'nt stop doing that... shows the amount of weakness I have in my head... I have been trying to bring some change to my routine but it seems my efforts are not sufficient.
wanted to get this DVRMS converter downloaded, but since it was a 9MB file, and I didn't have access to the MTNL website to check my usage, I thought I'd do it after midnight... but after midnight I completely forgot about what I was to do and slept off and now in the morning realised that I didn't download the file
the MTNL monitor site is still not up.. so don't know what is my usage level and how much is left.
this is one huge readon for me to sit late on the PC.. and I need to change the way this happens too.. maybe get a new plan or something.
Weather wise the heat has been turned on since around 10th Feb. Today I had to put on the fan for a longer period of time in the day.. also maybe because I didn't open the windows fully lest the dust flows in, as I had cleaned up the floors and with the heat trapped in the room with the glass windows, the temperature had shot up.
Leaving the windows open in the night might lead to the lizards getting in which is another 'fear' I am living with
Had this interesting tiff with a shopper at Hypercity.
For a change, I saw people come together to stop someone going the wrong way...
something like this could be that people are getting a little more conscious or that they were all very impatient today to get away with that lady's cartload full at a express checkout counter.
don't know which was which but well, the Hypercity staffers need to make sure this does not happen again.
my target now is ITIL and PMP
Tried not to get online but could'nt stop doing that... shows the amount of weakness I have in my head... I have been trying to bring some change to my routine but it seems my efforts are not sufficient.
wanted to get this DVRMS converter downloaded, but since it was a 9MB file, and I didn't have access to the MTNL website to check my usage, I thought I'd do it after midnight... but after midnight I completely forgot about what I was to do and slept off and now in the morning realised that I didn't download the file
the MTNL monitor site is still not up.. so don't know what is my usage level and how much is left.
this is one huge readon for me to sit late on the PC.. and I need to change the way this happens too.. maybe get a new plan or something.
Weather wise the heat has been turned on since around 10th Feb. Today I had to put on the fan for a longer period of time in the day.. also maybe because I didn't open the windows fully lest the dust flows in, as I had cleaned up the floors and with the heat trapped in the room with the glass windows, the temperature had shot up.
Leaving the windows open in the night might lead to the lizards getting in which is another 'fear' I am living with
Had this interesting tiff with a shopper at Hypercity.
For a change, I saw people come together to stop someone going the wrong way...
something like this could be that people are getting a little more conscious or that they were all very impatient today to get away with that lady's cartload full at a express checkout counter.
don't know which was which but well, the Hypercity staffers need to make sure this does not happen again.
my target now is ITIL and PMP
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